The door, it blocks my way. I can open but why would I do that? Outside is the other side. Outside is where I should go, but why? I can stay here. My mind running through arguments on why I should stay indoors. Outside feeling more intimidating. Indoors is safe, I know where I am. I can go out later. Anxiety building. The door a barrier, an immovable barrier.

I stay in.



How do people switch off? How do you manage to sit down and binge-watch a series on Netflix? I can’t even sit down and read a book now. My brain is continually racing at 100 miles an hour. I need to find projects, something to do, something to preoccupy my mind. Lazy moments become a virtual hellscape in my mind. My own mind is slowly torturing me. How do I switch anxiety off, I am fed up with onxiety.

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May You Live in Interesting Times

May you live in interesting times is a British expression that we often say the Chinese said. To be honest, I don’t know if this is true or not, but I certainly now feel the tension and anxiety such an idea proclaims in so few words. The current period the UK will is going through will undoubtedly become a period of time that many academics base an entire career on the study of how a union of countries disintegrated, the UK not the EU.

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The Tsunami

I chose to believe that I lived in a progressive country. Now, I realise I was deluded. The UK has finally let down its mask, and inside is an ugly beast. The rampant exceptionalism that allowed Britain to colonise a lot of the world still runs wild in individual sections of society. Our politicians no longer guide or lead; they merely surf the wave of populism. The only problem here is that the wave is a tsunami.

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Monday Morning

Monday morning.

Is it the first day of the new week or the second day? Should I even care? It’s not like Monday isn’t just a social construct, like money. Thinks that only exist because we pretend they are real. Is that the real human condition? To live in a state of denial about reality?

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